ten things: may fifteenth

one. the hellfire club with sebastian crane is one of my favorite patreon memberships. i attended my first virtual meeting on saturday and had so much fun. i dressed up a bit, had a london fog to drink, and enjoyed learning about jack sheppard, thievery magic of the 18th century, and added a few books to my shopping cart. i’m most excited for confessions of the fox by jordy rosenberg.

two. i set my profile picture on instagram to a blank dark green circle. i feel like i am on the edge of another shift, but can’t figure out what it is. so i kind of don’t want to be seen until i figure it out. i have no idea if that makes sense. it barely makes sense to me but it’s just what i want to do.

three. how is it already may?

four. craving oatmeal with brown sugar, honey, butter, and walnuts. also a plate of crispy bacon and hashbrowns. but also a chocolate caramel cake with ice cream.

five. i keep going back and forth on starting or joining writing groups. i’ve been in a few, but i’m never able to stick around. what do people like in writing groups? what makes them stick around? i wish i had the answers. and honestly i don’t know what the answers are for me either.

six. fun fact, i wrote the first five things on monday night, today is now saturday afternoon. what is consistent? what is finishing? i don’t know them.

seven. i went to go take a nap before i remembered that morning ashley thought it was a great idea to dump all the laundry on her bed. now afternoon ashley is cranky and their ass is going numb because they are sitting on the floor in protest.

eight. black cherry water. that is all.

nine. still determined to figure out a new website/platform for writing. but until that time, i’m going to keep doing what i’m doing. even though more often than not if feels like i’m talking into a void.

ten. the moon just moved into cancer. chani app told me so.

ten things

one. spring is such a difficult season. surge of allergies, temperamental weather, aching joints as they come out of winter. michigan spring has been difficult. the temperatures dropped for about a week, rained two days in a row, steadily climbing back to the 70s, but interspersed with lows of 30s. my body is having a hard time with all this back and forth. it reminds me of texas, honestly. never thought i would say that. although i’m glad to not have triple digit summers. i will never miss those parts of texas.

two. this banana fosters coffee is not hitting the way it did before. i think it’s because i am drinking it will eating cereal. the flavors are not compatible.

three. today is the last day of reclaiming your creativity. i have so many feelings, most of them are “i could have done more”, but also, “i’m glad i showed up as i did”. i may not have a lot of physical projects to show for this class, but the conversations, the discussions, the sharing, all of that has stuck with me and i’m glad to have been a part of it.

four. yesterday i cleaned my bed sheets, organized my books, and did my laundry, took down my insulation on the windows of my camper, and set up my couch to be a reading space.

five. it is interesting to me, the things that i write for public spaces, like this list. and how my ten things lists in my writing sanctuary group is so different. it’s like i’m channeling a different part of me when i write there versus what i write here. and i don’t think that means this here is not true, it just means there are certain pieces i am able to share here versus there. all are me. all are true. i just think it’s interesting to see the difference.

six. ah damn it, why did i read the news?

seven. oh here’s a fun thing that i did in my writing sanctuary that i want to do here. let’s play a game. the first five ads in my instagram today are: salted caramel lattes from copper cow coffee (okay, yes, please), a blue ombre lace robe from zulily (i have never shopped there, but that robe looks glorious), foundation from il makiage (never heard of them, but that ad video might sell me), SAPPHIC TRAVEL AD FROM ORBITZ (yes, please), and s’mores coffee from player one coffee (i love coffee).

eight. today in the three broomsticks (my twitter list of folks i like to keep up with) there is discussion of marvel and it’s flacon and winter soldier show, adult adhd, space movies, and how tarzan is better than frozen. sometimes twitter can be fun.

nine. realizing more and more how much i hate facebook. after my year long commitment to community tour, i think i will deactivate my account. that’s not until september though. whew.

ten. fifteen minutes until my call. i need to go warm up my coffee.

march reads: mini reviews

March was a strange reading month. I started several books but still haven’t finished any of them. Jane Eyre, which I started end of February, both book club books, and two different graphic novels.


I binged Shadow and Bone by Leigh Bardugo in one day. Did I do so that I would have a book instead of just fanfic reviews? Yes, yes I did. And also, I’ve been wanting to read this series for years and finally got the first three e-books on sale.

Shadow and Bone by Leigh Bardugo
3.5 Stars

I wanted to like this soo much more, and I know that many have told me the first trilogy is a a slow-ish read compared to the rest. But I am okay with that. Bardugo’s world building is fucking brilliant. Also, I feel like younger me, had I read it when it came out, I would have given Mal a chance at being worthy of the love triangle, but as a 30 year old who doesn’t have time to wait around for dude to realize “it was you all along”….noooope. Maybe I’ll change my mind about him in the next two books! We shall see.

Alina, sweet child. I want to shake her. With love. And tell her she needs NO MAN. Okay, that could be my gayness coming out. Whatevs. Point is. I am excited to see how she transforms and grows in the next book. I am always here for a coming of age with magic story and again, I love this world that Bardugo has created.

Am I already in love with The Darkling? Yes. Would younger me be in love with him? Yes. Do I really have a “type”? Unfortunately, the answer is yes. And hello, he’s being played by Ben Barnes. I’ve been in love. SO…

I’m not sure what else to say about it. I used to be so good at reviews damn it, but I won’t lie, I’m rushing this post a bit because I am determined to post it tonight as close to the end of March as I can. I don’t like April Fool’s Day, so today is actually March 22nd, thank you.

Anyhoo. I cannot wait to read the rest of this Grishaverse series!

Top Five Fan Fic Reviews for March

Total words for March: 3,227,462 words
Total Fics for March: 93
Shortest Fic: 1,073 words
Longest Fic: 477,981 words

I’m not going to put content warnings because if you click through the link, AO3 tagging system is brilliant and you can read those to see if this is a fic for you. More often than not, AO3 authors are heavy with the tags that way you know what you’re getting.

Also, I can’t keep up with trying to track all the fics I bookmark, whew. One day, I might be able to. But I’m cutting it down to sharing my top five fics.


Verba Volant by shushu_yaoi_lj – This is an 8th year fic, which is one of my favorite tropes for Harry Potter fanfic. It starts the summer of the war, after the trials. Draco send Harry a letter, and there is banter and flirting, and it makes my heart happy. There is a also a sweet little mystery surrounding one of Harry’s ancestors and one of Draco’s. It’s precious and heartbreaking. This is also a Veela Draco fic, which is one of my favorite AUs. This fic really filled a lot of my faves.

Crown Witness by slytherco – Criminal-ish Draco and Auror Harry. Another favorite AU/trope. Even though overall, I don’t like when Harry is an Auror. I don’t think he would have been on given all of the trauma. But that’s a personal thing, and I can overlook it for a good criminal/body guard romance plot. Which is what this is. I love everything about Draco in this one. SO much sass and innuendos. Ugh. So good.

Ineffable Spouses

Divine Restorations and Repairs by SylviaW1991 & skimmingthesurface – Good Omens Human AU. Y’all. This might be one of my favorites. Crowley is leaving London and breaks down in Tadfield, and Aziraphale is an angel with umbrella who takes him in and all the pining ensues. Seriously. So cute. SIXTEEN CHAPTER SLOW BURN Y’ALL. But it’s worth it. This will become a comfort fic for sure. This is also what I would consider a found family fic, because FUCK Aziraphale’s blood family in this one.

Misty Mauve by MrsCaulfield – Good Omens Human AU. Victorian rivals to friends to lovers. So. Much. Pining. And slow burn. Can y’all tell I was in a mood? Lol. But really, this one is brilliant, another comfort fic. And sweet sweet Crowley. He tries. So hard. I always have a soft spot for Crowley when he’s trying to do the right thing and everyone misunderstands him. Ugh. Also, Victorian dancing and pining and NO period homophobia. Which I love. Also, MrsCulfield is one of my favorite Good Omens fanfic authors and I am subscribed to all the current WIPs.

Against Expectations by summerofspock and art by Blue_Sparkle – Good Omens Human AU. REGENCY arranged marriage and pining while fucking, and slow burn, and ashjdbfhugiwjgijf. Aziraphale is femme, Crowley is genderfluid as fuck. I don’t want to give too much away, this is a very sweet, sometimes heartbreaking fic because why don’t these two just communicate!?! But I loved everything about this. The art is wonderful nd everything about this one is brilliant.

Fingers crossed I have a better reading month in April. Not that over 3.2 million fanfic words is not good, but I do have a huge stack of books I want to get through. Especially the Grishaverse books before the show comes out! What have y’all been reading lately?

moon femme musings

one. i am really starting to feel the spring. i’m waking up earlier, have a bit more energy, allergies are already kicking my butt. the urge to clean and rearrange and move things occur quite frequently. so too the subtle lightening of my the space around me. we are less than two weeks from the spring equinox and i’ve truly never been so excited.

two. i’m reading jane eyre for the first time and it is quickly becoming one of my favorite books. also, most excited to listen to the mr rochester episode of fuckbois of literature so i can properly vent and be validated in my feelings about him. i also really want to watch the bbc four episode series starring ruth wilson as jane. hopefully i can find it easily.

three. does anyone else want to start new routines on mondays? only to have them utterly fail by wednesday? i had a lovely chat with a dear friend last week about routine and ritual and how it just doesn’t work for either of us. and that that is okay. i’m learning to be okay with going with the flow of the day and not putting too much pressure on how the day will play out. i am trying to write most evenings, a “what i did” list instead of a to-do list, that way i can see what my day actually consists of.

four. i’m not 100% sure i like this ten things list so far and it will be interesting to see if i actually post it.

five. yesterday i went through all my monthly subscriptions and canceled the ones i don’t use often. i’m still inclined to find a book box subscription, but am having a hard time justifying it at the moment when i haven’t read all the books i have and have kindle unlimited and have very actual limited space in my camper to store them all.

six. today i dusted and vacuumed my camper. still need to figure out the best was to wash and clean the fabric as it is seeming to hold a lot of dust and my allergies are only getting worse as we enter into spring. also, i bought new sheets and i hope they are as comfy as i am told.

seven. MY BOOKS ARE HERE! y’all, i accidently put the number wrong and was afraid i would never see them since i entered a house number that doesn’t exist. whew. so glad they are here.

eight. today, i talked with a dear friend of mine and she said she had to pause her book she’s wanting to write because she can’t decide where to set it. it was originally going to be present day, but then she realized she would have to include covid and actual covid life. and y’all. my mind was blown. i do not know why i didn’t realize this before. and now i’m wondering if that’s why my book i was writing has come to a pause. nothing felt right about it, it didn’t feel real. and now i am beginning to suspect this is why. i am very interested to see what writing comes out of me now that i have had this realization.

nine. holy moly i am tired. i took two benadryls and my eyes can barely stay open. this stuff knocks me out, but i didn’t much fancy more skin irritation and allergy reactions to the cats.

ten. i’m eyeing a sleep set of comfy lightweight pajamas, but can’t justify it to myself just yet.

february reads: mini reviews

This month feels like it went by so quickly and that it should have lasted longer? I don’t know. But! I had a really good reading month, comparatively to last year in general. I tried to read in a theme for the month of February: romance and winter thrillers. I’m not sure if I’ll stick to a theme for the following months, but I do want to keep track of types of books I read.

Which reminds me, if y’all have not heard of The Story Graph, an alternative to Good Reads, here is my profile. I’m still figuring out how to use it, but I really like that you can DNF books and it records them. Also, create so many tags. But the BEST part is it tracks your reading stats! Also, you can create your own reading challenges or join others. I have a Reading Challenge to read 30 books this year and have joined a Translation Challenge in order to read more books from other countries.

Anyhoo. On to the reviews.

February Book Reviews

Along for the Ride by Mimi Grace

Ahhh, romance tropes in the best way! Forced proximity due to road trip, enemies to lovers. So well done. What I liked best about this is it’s not just a roadtrip romance, but the fallout/consequences and how Jolene and Jason interact after they get back and how their lives unfold. I really enjoyed this one a lot and will be reading more of this author’s books.

Anyone But You by Chelsea M. Cameron

Okay, so obviously I was in a romance enemies to lovers mood. I read this book right after Along For The Ride. Cameron’s books have been on my radar for years and I finally went ahead with this one. Because the GRUMPY ONE AND THE SUNSHINE ONE is one of my favorite tropes. There were some issues as the Grumpy One (Tuesday) is more of the Asshole One and it takes a long time to get any kind of redeemable quality. The Sunshine One (Sutton) is very Sunshiney and has a bit of a bastard streak, which I Love. I think the biggest issue I had was that when I read enemies to lovers fics, they are usually in dual POV so I can read BOTH characters internal dialogue and struggle (which is how Along for the Ride was!) are more known. Still enjoyed this and will be reading more of Cameron’s books.

Powers of Darkness: The Lost Version of Dracula by Bram Stoker & Valdimar Asmunddson; Translated by Hans Corneel De Roos
Read for Most Horrific and Gothic Book Club

It has been ages since I’ve read the original Dracula, and it’s a lot longer than this one. But the best part of this version is the Forward, the foot notes, and really exploring the idea of kind of a darker Dracula. It’s kind of hard to explain, there are a handful of characters who were cut from the original that I LOVED in this one. Specifically one of the Bride’s is more present and has a motivation to be around Thomas Harker (aka Jonathan Harker). And there are a few servants who not present that give a bit more of a creepy castle vibe. I think next time I read this, I will read Part One from this book and read the rest of the original. Also, if you are a Icelandic fan, pick this one up!

The Sanatorium by Sarah Pearse

Okay, I read this book purposely because Rachel (IG is Bookish Winter Witch) read it and she LOVED it up until the ending. And I had to know what that meant! So, I went into this knowing the ending wasn’t probably going to be the best. And yes, without being spoiler-y. This book is a perfect winter thriller. Creepy as fuck, complicated sibling dynamics, set in the Swiss Alps, the main character is dealing with heavy PTSD and is supposed to be on vacation. But then murder. The ending is…not well executed in terms of the Murderer and their Motivation. It just does NOT fit the rest of the book. Also, there is an epilogue that doesn’t fit either and sets up for a sequel. All the issues aside, I loved it up until I hated it.

February Top Ten Bookmarked Fan Fics

Total words for February: 2,788,806 words
Total Fics for February: 104
Shortest Fic: 1,900 words
Longest Fic: 236,410 words

I’m not going to put content warnings because if you click through the link, AO3 tagging system is brilliant and you can read those to see if this is a fic for you. More often than not, AO3 authors are heavy with the tags that way you know what you’re getting.

Smitten At First Fright by Oopsynini – Good Omens Human AU. Aziraphale is an agoraphobic, disabled tenant immediately smitten with the resident gardener, Crowley, who is equally as smitten. There is so. Much. Softness. Which feels almost equally balanced by very difficult and heartbreaking  situations as well. My heart broke and I cried the entirety of the last chapter and a half. Again, happy endings only! But fuck, what a journey. 

If you do want to read this, please please read the tags for this one. There are some very triggering things around hospitalization.

Fave Things – the slow reveal about Aziraphale’s trauma, Crowley’s refusal to wear a “proper fitting” shirt, Protective Sweet Crowley, all of the ridiculous pet names Crowley gives to Aziraphale. 

The Professor, Old Crush, and New Love by AccroV – Human AU. Aziraphale Fell gets introduced to his new colleague, only to find out it is ex-best friend and first love, Anthony Crowley. Let the pining begin!

Seriously though. So. Much. Pining. This fic alternates between present day and high school flashbacks where we get to see their first meet, relationship, and breakdown. It was so beautiful and emotional.

Fave Things – gender fluid Crowley, nice Gabriel (I KNOW!), and all the fluff and awkward flirting.

The Bookshop Around The Corner by mordelle – Human AU. Aziraphale’s godson, Adam, sent his drafted romance novel (in secret!) to AJ Crowley, renowned book critic who really seems to despise romance. A spin on “You’ve Got Mail”. There is so much more to Crowley than “grrr romance” and the background and reveal of everything is just kind of heartbreaking and leaves you rooting for him the whole time. 

Advice: do no read if you are in the midst of emotional hangover revolving around miscommunication. Because this whole thing is miscommunication, or rather lack of communication period. And agh! I cried so much. It was impossible for me to set aside, I binged it in one sitting. I really really enjoyed this one and will re-read it again. 

Fave Things – Harriet and Crowley’s sibling relationship, Adam and Warlock, Crowley trying just so damn hard. 

Work of Heart by WickedWriter – Human AU. Aziraphale is a grumpy librarian volunteer who is immediately drawn to and confused by Crowley, another volunteer who is flashy, cocky, and wears very inappropriate clothing to reading circle. Ugh, I loved this one. It was painful at times how completely oblivious Aziraphale is when it comes to Crowley trying so dang hard and being a soft little disaster. 

Fave Things – Crowley reading horror stories to kids and Aziraphale is not impressed, the Kilt, cooking class instructor Crowley.

Win A Date With Anthony J. Crowley by Caedmon – Human AU. Crowley is a world famous rock star, Aziraphale wins a Date with Crowley. The date goes exceedingly well and Crowley is utterly charmed by the fact that Aziraphale has no idea who he is.

This fic is precious. So much sweetness. So much fluff. There is a heavy thread of stalking and harassment, it is handled well and doesn’t take away from all the fluff! It definitely went a place that I didn’t think of and this is going to be a comfort fic for sure.

Fave Things – the flirting, Crowley being so damn sweet, HEALTHY COMMUNICATION.

Something That Happens To Other People by Caedmon – Human AU. Crowley is a hot shot political reporter who fucks up and is demoted to the society pages, forced to cover a wedding for an American heiress and her fiancé. (Anathama and Newt! So cute). In his first meeting, he is introduced and immediatley smitten with Aziraphale, the wedding planner known as the “angel of love”.

There is a lot of romance clichés and they work so well. I think my favorite part of this is the open communication (after the initial “there’s no way he likes me”). There is a large upset and lack of communication towards the end, but again, I only read happy endings!

Fave Things – Anathama shipping Crowley and Aziraphale all the damn time, the pining, Crowley courting and wooing Aziraphale in all the ways he deserves.

Silent As The Grave by miraworos – Human/Fantasy AU. Aziraphale Ange is a location scout and finds a perfect castle to impress his boss, but he just has to convince the recluse and charming Count Crowley. This fic has all the makings of a cozy Gothic romance.

Hauntings, mysteries upon mysteries, this story was just so good and I enjoyed the atmosphere of it so very much.

Fave Things – Gothic Romance, supernatural murder mystery, Crowley being mysterious and sexy as fuck, Aziraphale being smitten and protective of Crowley.


Whew. Okay, I think I may change the formatting of my reviews for the fan fics. I’m having a hard time keeping up with them and I only wrote a few reviews, not including a handful of others that I forgot to take notes on. Hmmm. If anyone has any ideas, feel free to leave me suggestions.

What books or fics did you read last month?

ten things for the new moon

1. There is a thought in the writing community, specifically for writers who are socialized femme, that the reason we never get work done is because we have been conditioned to believe we have to have the perfect writing environment, which leads us to clean the entire house and manage all the errands and household things before we sit down and write. Which ultimately means many of us will never sit down to write because there is always something to be done. I struggle with this because I am someone who NEEDS my writing space to be clean. And because I have ADHD, once I start cleaning one area, I start cleaning other areas (because I have a plate in my desk that needs to go to the kitchen, and when I’m in the kitchen I realize I need to bring my clean dishes to my camper, and when I’m in my camper I realize I need to sweep the floors, and when I sweep the floors I need to take out the trash, but first I need to gather all the trash from my camper, etc). So yes, I see how that means “I will never sit down to write”, but also, maybe my brain needs to focus on cleaning first and that can be okay sometimes.

2. “So it’s safe to say that not all words, not all topics, not all stories are for every one at every moment.”

3. A London Fog on a cold, snowy day.

4. I forgot I was recording my observations yesterday. So today I’m starting again to make a list of ten things.

5. New Moon cycle on the day I start my actual cycle. It makes me extra tired. When I’m synced with the Full Moon I feel like a werewolf. In the best and most feral way.

6. Knowing her magic is being protected and loved. And maybe one day shared. But now, she is safe again.

7. My gender of the day is blurry. My body dysmorphia is a lot. It came out of nowhere, I was just changing clothes and all of a sudden “why are my boobs this big! (I’m on my period)” and why are my hips hurting (I’m on my period”. Well, everything is horrible.

8. Looking back at 1-7 and seeing how disjointed everything is makes me realize how much humans carry at any given time. It’s a lot. We’re a lot. And that’s okay.

9. “HOMESCHOOL IS BAD FOR THE ENVIRONMENT”. Lolsob. That kid is great.

10. Dark academia playlists on repeat.

january reads: mini reviews

How is it already the end of January? How is it 2021? What even is time?

Yeah, I have no answers either. What I do have are some mini reviews of books and fanfic that I’ve read this month. Yes, fanfic. I am tracking them this year. I kept moaning about how much I haven’t “read” and after talking to loved ones and working through society shames, I have realized, fanfic absolutely fucking counts.

Fanfic writers are unsung heroes of fandoms, and there are some absolute gems just waiting to be found. So, I decided to start sending them to friend’s and someone recommended to me to possible start reviewing them because they bring me joy. And as everyone can sense, we all to find our joys right now.

Okay, I’m running out of things to talk about, so here we go.

January Book Reviews

Vessel of Starfire: Outlaws of Interra Book 1 by Allison Carr Waechter

It’s been such a long time since I’ve read a fantasy and Waechter’s book reminded me why I love this genre. Being immediately thrown into the world of the criminal family, the Vindicata, I was deeply impressed with the world building, the diverse characters, the queer and neurodivergence, the family relationships. I am so ready for the next book.

Bazaar of Bad Dreams by Stephen King.
Read for Most Horrific and Gothic Book Club

I think I read only about four or five stories. As much as I love the horror genre, I have such a difficult time reading King more often than not. Mostly because there just always seems to be a character who is racist, or homophobic, or transphobic, or fatphobic, and I have recently not been able to read around these things anymore. I used to be able to just roll my eyes and keep reading, especially if it’s older books (not saying it was “excused” even in the past), but I am not able to really do that anymore. Especially when I have a plethora of books that aren’t like this that are waiting to be read.

January Bookmarked Fan Fic

So, I actually have read over 3 million words of fanfic in January, but have decided that I will only post to ones I have personally bookmarked as re-reads. Yes, I do re-read fanfics.

I’m not going to put content warnings because if you click through the link, AO3 tagging system is brilliant and you can read those to see if this is a fic for you. More often than not, AO3 authors are heavy with the tags that way you know what you’re getting.

Top 5 Fics of January

Come Set Me Free by Slow_Burn_Sally: A Good Omens Human AU. Aziraphale is a bookseller, married to Gabriel, a life guru. Gabriel inheirts some land and a mansion, decides to hire someone to take care of the greehouse and garden. Enter, Crowley. A man with a troubled past. Aziraphale is immediately crushing on the man, but he’s straight (or so Gabriel and Aziraphale assume, bi-erasure is a thing) so it’ll be fine.

I loved this one. I have a such a soft spot for fics where Aziraphale is with Gabriel and learns that he is not being treated right, and it takes Crowley treating him like all humans deserve. I love watching the friendship develop, seeing the mutual pining, and it should be noted, I ONLY read fics that have happy endings.

Fave things: gardener Crowley, bisexual Crowley, protective as fuck Crowley, soft Aziraphale (both literally and emotionally) slow burn.

Acts of Service by seekwill: A Good Omens Human AU. PRIEST AU. Aziraphale is the new reverend, Crowley works in “security” and is mysterious. But obviously, they take a liking to each other. Quite a bit of angst and drama in this one, and it’s so good.

Fun fact: I started re-reading this as I sat down to type this review because I needed to remember which Priest AU this was (I read just about all of the ones that on AO3, I regret nothing…) and it’s just as good as when I first read it.

Fave things: how very smitten Aziraphale is with Crowley, the reunion on Christmas night, the ENDING.

If Not Now, When by ineffablefool: A Good Omens Human AU. Speaking of fics with asexual representation. LITERALLY EVERYTHING INEFFABLE FOOL WRITES IS PERFECTION. Ace-friendly fic, fat positive. In every story, Aziraphale is fat, soft, beautiful. Softness. So much soft. Crowley is trans, which is always one of my favorite canons. I don’t even know what to say here, except watching the disaster that is Crowley fall in love with Aziraphale and their relationship unfold is just beautiful.

Fave things: trans Crowley, fat/soft/beautiful Aziraphale, non-sexual intimacy, BELLY KISSES.

Arise, My Darling, And Go Forth by NaroMorea: A Good Omens Human AU. Another Priest AU. This time, both Aziraphale and Crowley are priests. Also, this one is more angst than fluff. It broke my heart in many places, watching Aziraphale struggle so much with his love for Crowley. But it is very worth it.

Read the tags for this one!

Fave things: praying the rosary together, domestic fluff because they live together

Serpents and Pyramids by boredom: A Good Omens Human/The Mummy AU. That’s it, that’s all you have to know…

Just kidding.

Ezra Fell (Aziraphale) has always wanted to be an adventurer like his mother. But fast forward to his adult years, he is engaged to a politically aspiring Gabriel, and never seems to do anything right. He has a chance for adventure after and is soon paired up with Anthony J. Crowley to take him to find a lost amulet. “Enemies” to friends to lovers ensues, and Ezra learns what it means to really be loved and cared for.

Also, Crowley has a secret.

Fave things: Crowley being so dang protective of Ezra, the secret of Crowley’s, and everything about the ending.


I just realized, according to this months reads, looks like I only read Good Omens fics, lol. I do actually read for my Wolfstar and Drarry ships as well.

What books or fics or poems have you read this month?

ten things for the full moon

1. since january 1st of this year, i have read 2,745,992 words of fanfic. the shortest fic 1,169 words, the longest fic 204,421 words.

2. i have four fanfics i am plotting, one queer cozy mystery, one random thing that popped up that wants writing, and i’m trying to be more consistent here on the blog. also, five notebooks/journals and a plethora of ideas for instagram. i’m mildly overwhelmed with ideas and stuck, but i am working with a lovely creative coach who i admire and inspires me all the time.

3. i have been meaning to clean my camper for days now, but just looking at the piles of books and clothes that i need to organize is exhausting. so i haven’t done it yet.

4. my hair is obnoxiously long again, with roughly six or seven inches of blonde roots. i have no idea what i want to do with my hair. although i am tempted to ask someone to cut it off for me, just above where the blonde turns into red, so i can at least have the same color.

5. queen anne dark chocolate cordial cherries are thawing beside me. i can’t wait to eat the whole box today.

6. i have a long clothes and home decor wishlist and it pains me to look at it. some of these items have been here for months, almost a full year, but i just can’t bring myself to buy them.

7. and i have a separate wishlist for creative projects i’ve wanted to do. art journals, painting, collaging. so many things.

8. yet another wishlist for all the books i want. but i can’t decide between buying them as e-books or physical books. so my answer is to just not buy them. lolsob.

9. i am staring at my calendar, willing myself to set an schedule of sorts so i can stick to it. but i haven’t managed to do well with that in the past and don’t want to fail again. but also, i’m at that adhd stage where i need the structure.

10. ah, i forgot about that.

ten things 15

1. still binging miley’s new plastic hearts album.

2. i really wish i would have kept track of all the fanfic i read this year. i only read nine books, but i am not exaggerating when i say i’ve read thousands of fanfics. ranging from 1,000 words to 500,000 words. my fave fics tend to be around 50K to 80K. again, not an exaggeration. also want to figure out how to download and put them on my kindle so i don’t have to always read on my phone.

3. these past few weeks i’ve been trying to live my best dark academia cozy aesthetic life. and i intend to carry that over for next year too. life is too short not to give in and live my obsessions.

4. i’ve been trying to figure out what to do about my virtual work. if i want to keep trying and get clients for 2021. or if i should just let that part of my work go.

5. i don’t make goals anymore for “new years”, but i do want to try my hand at digital collages and art journaling for 2021. i need another creative outlet. i can’t quite decide how or if i will share it publicly. but i want to have something to create besides just words.

6. why is it so hard to put Feelings into words?

7. my to-do list has a to-do list. i wish i were joking. you know the list of things you have to do before you do the thing? *sigh*

8. i’m really trying to finish this post before the baby gets too upset. currently he is babbling and talking to himself over the monitor. i love listening to babies talk.

9. does anyone else understand when i say “my heart stomach wants the thing but my stomach stomach doesn’t”. sometimes i eat for my heart stomach, not my stomach stomach. and then that’s a whole thing.

10. commissioning art from a friend is my favorite.

ten things 14

1. obsessed with tiktok. my absolute fave is Ash Valmont (he is LITERALLY sirius black. fight me). fairly certain i have watched every video he’s made and i don’t want to admit how many times i have watched the ones that are sirius black. my remus lupin self loves him, okay?

1a. also, birate tiktok. aka bisexual pirate tiktok. you’re welcome.

2. i’ve been trying to write this damn post for two days. one day i will have something more exciting than a list. but sometimes, this is the only way my brain can make sense of things.

3. speaking of brain. adhd brain, anxiety brain, depression brain. *sigh* they’re really hitting me right now. tell me why the fuck the sun goes down at 5 PM and i’m always ready for bed.

4. back in the day when i had a book blog (*cries in bookstagram envy*) i used to do a massive post on the books i read, and broke down the info (fiction vs nonfiction, romance, ya, sci-fi, etc.) soooo. as my pandemic/depression brain can’t focus on “real” books, do i or do i not count up the fanfics i’ve read this year? between wolfstar, drarry, and my ineffable husbands/wives….i don’t even know how many millions of words i have read. and i wish i were exaggerating…

5. currently switching between this post and my keybase/discord chats and my eyes hurt. i have all my chats set to dark mode, but alas, there is no dark mode for wordpress.

6. dark mode reminded me of dark mood which reminded me of dark academia and now i want to shop for more remus lupin sweaters. *stares at bank account*

7. ask me how many things i’ve bought this year. just kidding. please don’t ask me.

8. mild tangent: doom shopping is a thing. shopping for that dopamine hit we all so fucking desperately need during this shit year is nothing to be ashamed of. and no, i’m not just saying this to make myself feel better or justify my spending. legit, needing a way to find those small joys during this pandemic is so fucking important. i am glad i have the privilege to be able to still buy a few things here and there.

9. speaking of privilege, i am glad i got to see my family when i did, because i don’t know the next time i will feel safe to so again. seeing as how america can’t get the numbers down. it truly blows my mind how shitty this was handled. well, blows my mind and also not surprising because this administration is horrible.

10. speaking of administration. glad to see the presidential transition is happening finally and cannot wait to keep asking for biden/harris administration to be accountable as well. none of these fights and demands are over.